Oh my gosh!! I'm so excited!! I actually got my first client for my Figura avatar commission service!

I was able to work out the initial price estimate with them, use paypal to send my first invoice, had them pay half upfront, and ultimately I ended up acing this thing. I totally mean to brag here - I sped through it, got almost everything done in about 9 hours, made the skin from scratch, set up my scripts, set up physics, got everything nice and clean, and even discovered a few subtle improvements live with my client to make things look neater. It's so much fun!!

I ultimately wasn't as stressed as I expected to be. It helps that this is someone I knew, but as I go forward I should totally expect to do this for people I've just met, too. And, granted, I'm not sure how much mileage I'm going to get while I'm still closed up in my cozy little servers and stuff. But, you know, that is just how I like it. Maybe I'll make a subpage on /commissions with a list of previous commissions I've done, and eventually show off in the figura server if I'm brave enough?? That's really stressful though... ^^"

There's also, like, the whole matter of the fact that this counts as income. Income, like, real income. I've never had my own money before, not like this, not that I earned from WORK, from a JOB. What is this feeling? I hope I don't make some kind of mistake and spend it all prematurely or something. I mean, I trust myself not to, but still... that's common with this kind of thing right? What should I expect?

And on the other hand. While I love working like this - making Figura models is fun, and something I excel at - I still have the looming voice in my head saying I'm not cut out for something like a daily job. I still really wish the SSA gave me something for all the time I wasted sending in applications for benefits or disability. I'm supposed to be applicable - I've got autism, possibly ADHD or something adjacent, major depressive disorder, something something delusions. I'm more than eligible, right? Sigh...

But, yeah, that's a vent for another time. Anyways. First commission! Mostly done!! Gonna finish tomorrow! I've even already got somebody else in my DMs saying they'll commission me tomorrow too! This is awesome!