It's finally upon us! We're moving to New York! All services will be down (including the site), starting Sunday evening (March 1st, after about 8pm CST), lasting through at least Wednesday morning (March 4th) but possibly later. I've shared more about it in previous posts but the gist is this: We're moving to Brooklyn, New York, to live with Uncle Cr4y, one of our best online friends. He's in the perfect position to take care of us long-term, physically, emotionally, and financially. He's doing a lot to help us, even before we get there, like making our new room sensory friendly and stocking up on our safe foods. He'll bring us into his health insurance long-term and help us stay afloat. He'll help us get on the disability fund as well - apparently it's MUCH easier in New York. Our bestie KD is going to help. On Sunday evening, we plan to have her help pack the car with anything left. The morning after, at roughly 7 AM CST, I'll meet her at her place and we'll hit the road. We already

Last week, on the 17th, our bestie KD took me to a place in downtown Houston called Meow Wolf. I've been caught up in my own stuff, but I'm ready to finally write about it! KD suggested back in December (I think) that she take me to Meow Wolf before we move. Then life happened and we both forgot about it, until mid-February, with the move very soon (March 2nd, in 4 days!). She got us tickets and made sure we'd make it. There was some difficulty getting there, but we made it on time. All I knew in advance is I heard Meow Wolf described as a "liminal space museum". I love liminal spaces, dreamcore, Yume Nikki & fangames, so I had high hopes. I didn't know how it would work exactly, if it would be interactive and I'd get to walk around in the spaces or what. In the end I was pleasantly surprised! We entered through a queue into a small room with other visitors. We only were waiting a moment before someone entered and started briefing everyone. She told us that there's 3 main rules: T

Hi! This one's a break from the usual important life updates. Just some thoughts I've had swimming around in our head for a while that I want to share. Was showing a game to a friend when we saw a scene involving characters' feelings about their heritage. It of course had me wondering about where we came from. So here's some backstory and feelings about our family tree. (CW: discussions of family and forced bonds, emotional abuse, the usual) Extended family Sunny and I have had a complicated relationship with our extended family for as long as we can remember, and it's been pointed out several times to me by friends how unusual it is. There's several moving parts to why we felt and feel the way we do, that I want to put down in writing. Ever since Sunny was little, there's been this kind of... bubble. Sunny was heavily incentivized to close themself off and only associate with their immediate birth family. Their friendships were looked down on by their birth parents, and they were disa

Hello all! It's been a while since I wrote here, but this is the perfect time, with 2025 ending and the new year 2026 upon us. 2025 was rough on some, maybe even many people, especially because of a certain change in administration. But for us, our 2025 was positive, transformative, uplifting in ways I could have never dreamed. At the risk of repeating myself from some of my previous posts, I'm gonna do a recap: Where we've been (recap) TW: health crisis, medical system, mentions of narcissistic abuse At the beginning of this year, I was in a bad place. My wrist problems had been worsening for a few years, which I'd been hiding behind a wrist brace, but they got to the point I couldn't hide them anymore. Something else was brewing too, this sensation like the nerves in my arms would burst into flames if they touched something too hard. I wasn't doing anything wrong, but I ended up bedridden for a few months since around March of this year. I would spend every day in my bedroom, laid ou

This post comes after this post, concerning my cool new friends Mocha and August. I met them through a sticker with a furry on it in a parking lot, and the butterfly effect led me to these two partners who travel together a lot, and, like me, they're mature and wise. We found we get along really well, and as the two started inviting me to various meetups, I came every single time. With their encouragement, I tested the limits of my bubble, and went outside my comfort zone, and found it's not so bad, especially with friends like them. I genuinely felt like I could tell them anything, and I've even let August drive our car! That's an awesome level of trust to have, especially in new friends. And because of them, I learned a lot, some about our physical health, some about my bias toward negativity, some about travel, and some about the way I cultivate relationships. So, after the life-changing road trip in the previous post, I had a few more visits with them. Specifically, we hung out aro

Today's post is going to be a lot more sentimental and abstract. I want to share with you some experiences that really affected me in a positive way, and maybe they'll do the same for you. I already know I've had a strong impact on a lot of people in my life, but this time, I was the one impacted. The theme I want you to keep in mind is "reaching out", or "expanding your world" so to speak. It all started on August 1st, earlier this year... The sticker I was out shopping, specifically for a new chair, on the belief I held that our current chair in our computer room was causing some of our arm issues (turns out I was wrong). Well, in the parking lot of the Office Depot, there was this light pole, with a bunch of stickers on it. Most were pretty uninteresting - little logos, a meme cat picture, various expressions, a gun sticker, and so on. But one stood out: a sticker with a cute furry design on it, and a QR code. I was so fascinated, I followed the QR code later that day... Sure enough

It's our birthday! We just turned 25 years old. That brings with it some impetus to stop and reflect, and I wanted to share said reflections here, to anyone willing to listen to me ramble. This year has for sure been one of the hardest we've ever had to face. Harder than dropping out of high school, harder than hunting for a treatment for my mysterious pain after that, harder than any online relationship I've entered or exited, good or bad, and harder than slaving over a coding project for years and years. I (now we) have had to deal with an awful lot in the last 365 days. At about this time last year, I was comfortably chilling in my personal discord server, enjoying my time with games and such, although crucially I must point out that my wrists had already been failing for quite some time by then, and I would rather cover up the problem with wrist braces. The biggest worry I had to deal with was little online drama things, like inviting someone back there who'd wronged me and mana

Our shoulder surgery is tomorrow (Oct 7th). It'll be our seventh surgery this year, and at least twelfth total. Unlike the others this year, I'm not looking forward to this one. Yes, it's important and necessary, but I've been led to believe the recovery will be harsher than the wrists and elbows. Even though we have a ways to go, our wrists and arms are currently doing a lot better than 1-2 months ago - and this surgery will set us back immediately, since we'll be in a cast again. I just learned our arrival time will be 5:30 AM, which is actually perfect, because our sleep is nocturnal right now. I also want to share what's been going on medically for the past month, because it's been a wild ride. OT OT went pretty okay, same as usual. There was a few highs and lows. I learned our grip strength has measurably improved since we started coming! That gave me some hope, even though our neck procedure left our arms and wrists in worse shape than before for a while. I was slowly but surely

Hi all. Health update again. First post in a good while too. If you've been with us on discord, you probably already know a lot of the stuff I'm about to say. If not, buckle up. About that neck procedure I talked about this in the last one, but we needed a neck procedure to reseat herniated discs in our neck. Well, it happened. On August 13th, we had the procedure. Due to me having pain with the IV, Sunny was the one who actually went in to the operating room. There was no generalized anesthesia for the operation, just local (instead of being put to sleep, we were made "loopy" and numb). When the doctor came in, he called us by our deadname, which is wrong, because his nurse already had our real name written on our chart from when we saw him before, so he should've known. Sunny corrected him, and he handwaved it in this kind of "yeah, sure" way, before Sunny felt something bump into their left elbow, where we'd had a previous surgery. It hurt, so Sunny complained, to which the doctor l

Hello again! I'm very happy to finally have some good news to share about our health! Over time, we've been getting better, bit by bit. It was a slow crawl at first. Back in March and April, we struggled to even get out of bed most days. But since Sunny showed up, we've been slowly reclaiming control of our life. Recently, our wrists and arms have been workable enough that we've not needed our wrist braces for quite some time! And not only that, I've been driving us around almost every day! Driving had been a pretty difficult milestone for us to reach, because of how much it uses our arms and wrists, but we've gotten to a very good place with it. I've been able to drive us to our local ARFID-friendly food place pretty often, last week I took us by office depot and we picked up a new chair and took it home, and the next day, we even went to a big, crowded mall, and picked up some clothes! (Plus some boots we probably need to return...) By the way, in the interest of helping our wrists,