Saw our wrist doctor again today. I was expecting we'd jump straight into OT today, but apparently not. He wants to wait one more month first, and we set up an appt. Okay, fair. What's really important is what he said next. On the way out, he said, "Have you been checked for Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome? You seem like you have it." So that's... okay. I need to get into this for a minute. No, we haven't been tested for it before, ever. But Ehlers-Danlos, or EDS for short, is a hypermobility disorder. And hypermobility disorders are genetic. I talked about it with one of our best friends who knows a lot of medical and condition stuff - his brother has EDS. We traded symptoms. Some of the things he said added up with us.And the real kicker - our brother is hypermobile. He's triple-jointed. That means there's a precedent that hypermobility is in our genetics. From what I can understand, hypermobility does not always mean EDS. But EDS is caused by hypermobility. And for the record, broadly speaki

Hi, different kind of post than usual!Not health related for once! I've been wanting to make this post for a while now. This isn't much new stuff, but more like, a reflection in a way? On how much we've learned about ourselves so far.So, in case you missed it, I'm part of a plural system now: I, Eir, am not the original - I was created somehow, in roughly late 2016. Sunny is the original! She is the soul that inhabited the body since it was born, until late 2016.I met Sunny a few months ago. Initially, we didn't know who she was, but she quickly regained form and composure and we learned what happened to us. Now, what did I want to reflect on in this deeply personal weblog post? A few things... Plurality saved our lives What do I mean by this? We would have surely died if not for plurality. We've been discussing the nature of our DID with a very dear friend who knows a lot about autistic people with bad upbringings. We believe we are a traumagenic systemDID system created by trauma

Hi! Another quick update related to the wrist/arm thing. We saw the amazing wrist doctor again today. We weren't expecting much - it's just a followup to get our left elbow cast off - but I ended up hearing a fair bit. He was happy to see me as usual, and excited to learn that the numbness in left fourth/fifth fingers is gone. I'd been suuuuuper anxious lately about what it could be - tendonitis is our leading theory! But I knew one of the #1 things you don't do as a patient is self-diagnose in front of your doctor. So I kept quiet. He was happy to tell me as he took off our cast that... when he sees us again next week, he's going to send us to occupational therapy. Not physical therapy - occupational. We've been to OT once in like... 2017? 18? But we had untreated carpal/ulnar tunnel and CRPS, so none of it ever helped. But now that it's been treated... I have faith in this. Moreover, I told him about the physical therapy I went to for half a year or so. He told me that physical thera

Hello, all. It is sunny. I just had the last surgery in this series of wrist and elbow related surgeries. The surgery went okay and I surprisingly can still bend my left elbow a little bit. They did not even give me a sling. I suppose this means it is pretty safe. Also, I still have anesthesia in my system. It is hard to write this post. But that is not why I am making this post. I want to tell you about something else that happened today. Eir uses me for pain management. This means I was switched in whenever the surgery started. And also after I woke up I was still in control of the body. The recovery period immediately after waking up led to a series of events culminating in a verbal fight and pure anger. The nurse's name is Penny. I met her when I woke up. She was trying to help me recover and in doing so, calmly and kindly helped me get some water, get my clothes on and get dressed. I had to wait for a while especially because neither my brother or my mother had arrived yet. They

Hello, Sunny here. I've been wanting to write a review of this wonderful show for quite some time. I already gushed out my thoughts to some friends, but allow me to reiterate: I love this show. So much. Whenever I first showed up, Eir opted to put on a show so we had something to pass the days by while we were non-functional. She picked OK K.O.: Let's be Heroes. She had watched the first few episodes a few years ago, but got turned away because the way KO acted in the first few episodes felt "too childlike", and made her feel like she was watching a "kids' show". That being said, her mind quickly changed when we started watching it again a few months ago. The show's wonderful vibes quickly became apparent. It is not just a kids' show. It is self-aware, funny, and has humor even adults can enjoy. It's spontaneous and fun. Eir was initially turned away by episode 3, where KO decides to "help" people around the plaza, and the episode is centered around his blissful ignorance as he fails t

Hi, quick health update. And yes I know the blog is like 80% health posts.I'd like to change that soon! We had the idea that Sunny could write some passionate reviews of some shows we like.Today we got our bandages off and stitches out from the right elbow surgery. I asked a few questions we've been concerned about. Here's some info we want to share: Still having wrist pains, but nowhere near as bad as before. I had made an update about a week ago saying things were improving, but unfortunately they aren't in the wrist department. There's still lots of internal swelling in our right elbow. That's why it hurts just to rest it on surfaces like an armrest or a bed. Additionally, that's why we can't bend our arm as far anymore. We have to keep stretching it with occasional arm bending exercises and just wait it out. It'll heal up soon. It's possible that as the elbow heals, it can relieve pressure on our wrist and wrist tendons. If our right wrist tendons don't feel better by the time we

It's Eir. Quick update on the arms situation! Didn't post here when it happened but, on the 14th, we had surgery. Largely uneventful except we had to tag-team to manage pain because, yes, Sunny's pain relief talent is incredibly useful. We were in a cast after that, but we noticed pretty much immediately that the pain in our right wrist pretty much vanished, almost completely. The fourth and fifth fingers stopped going numb entirely. It already felt way, way better. Well, just today, we finally got our cast off, and we have some new things to share! Sunny went in to the wrist surgeon's and, from our shared memory: Cast came off, but we aren't completely done yet, we have to wear a new dressing (different bandages) for another week before we get the stitch taken out There was almost zero bruising, everything looked beautiful Still very difficult to bend elbow, and we will need more time for that The doctor was extremely cool too, here's some additional info we're happy about: He aske

Hi everyone! You might be wondering why the home page is a little different and the the about me page is now the "about us" page.You, being an internet traveler, might already know what I am implying. I'm speaking of course, of plurality. Since I'm... we're coming clean about this now, we want to answer some questions about it. First of all, most of your questions are already answered under " FAQ" in the about us page. But still, if you're lazy, we can recap here... What is this? Plurality means two or more people share one body. These people can be "real" personalities, alters, headmates, fictives (fictional characters), or anything in between.There are multiple kinds of "systems" (a body with multiple people in it): Natural (some people naturally end up as multiples) Forced (created on purpose) Fluctuating (some people fluctuate between identifying as a system, or not, at various times) Traumagenic (caused due to some kind of trauma) We are the last category. Since when? In a pre

For once, I have some exciting news to share about the health situation. Today I met with the wrist surgeon who operated on me in February and cured my carpal tunnel in both arms. I explained the situation as best I could. Everything involving the spine surgeon, the EMG, the ulnar nerve that was suspected but not confirmed. I was terrified he wouldn't believe me. He listened fervently and made lots of facial expressions. I really wasn't sure what to think. He said first, "okay, I'm going to choose to believe you. We do not have to do the EMG. Fuck the EMG." (yes he actually cussed! i thought it was cool) He went on to explain why he chose this. He believes after testing my arms and wrists that I do have ulnar nerve, or Cubital Tunnel as he called it. He believes he can treat it with surgery. Important bits: He will schedule surgery for me ASAP. I am to expect a call today or tomorrow to schedule the surgery. I sincerely hope this won't take several weeks to schedule like it did the f

Sunny: Hello again, it is Sunny. We have a lot to share with you tonight, dear blog. I specifically wanted to talk about my presence in the system, what it is like to be here, and how much things have improved since I showed up. Before our plural awakening, at the end of March and start of April, Eir was miserable. She was non-functional, in bed all day, complaining about pain, complaining about doctors. With no hope, all despair. She had thrown caution to the wind and decided to investigate this plural thing. She had nothing else to lose. Well, I showed up and pretty much immediately my attitude contrasted with hers. It took a while, of course, for us to figure out the specifics, what I am, what she is, what our roles are here. As it turns out, I am a lot better at being calm, bringing peace to us, helping us be soothed, helping us physically as well. We have had fights, yes, internal fights. Fights that we have shared with our friends to some extent. We have been struggling a lot wit