Hello all! It's been a while since I wrote here, but this is the perfect time, with 2025 ending and the new year 2026 upon us. 2025 was rough on some, maybe even many people, especially because of a certain change in administration. But for us, our 2025 was positive, transformative, uplifting in ways I could have never dreamed. At the risk of repeating myself from some of my previous posts, I'm gonna do a recap: Where we've been (recap) TW: health crisis, medical system, mentions of narcissistic abuse At the beginning of this year, I was in a bad place. My wrist problems had been worsening for a few years, which I'd been hiding behind a wrist brace, but they got to the point I couldn't hide them anymore. Something else was brewing too, this sensation like the nerves in my arms would burst into flames if they touched something too hard. I wasn't doing anything wrong, but I ended up bedridden for a few months since around March of this year. I would spend every day in my bedroom, laid ou

This post comes after this post, concerning my cool new friends Mocha and August. I met them through a sticker with a furry on it in a parking lot, and the butterfly effect led me to these two partners who travel together a lot, and, like me, they're mature and wise. We found we get along really well, and as the two started inviting me to various meetups, I came every single time. With their encouragement, I tested the limits of my bubble, and went outside my comfort zone, and found it's not so bad, especially with friends like them. I genuinely felt like I could tell them anything, and I've even let August drive our car! That's an awesome level of trust to have, especially in new friends. And because of them, I learned a lot, some about our physical health, some about my bias toward negativity, some about travel, and some about the way I cultivate relationships. So, after the life-changing road trip in the previous post, I had a few more visits with them. Specifically, we hung out aro

Today's post is going to be a lot more sentimental and abstract. I want to share with you some experiences that really affected me in a positive way, and maybe they'll do the same for you. I already know I've had a strong impact on a lot of people in my life, but this time, I was the one impacted. The theme I want you to keep in mind is "reaching out", or "expanding your world" so to speak. It all started on August 1st, earlier this year... The sticker I was out shopping, specifically for a new chair, on the belief I held that our current chair in our computer room was causing some of our arm issues (turns out I was wrong). Well, in the parking lot of the Office Depot, there was this light pole, with a bunch of stickers on it. Most were pretty uninteresting - little logos, a meme cat picture, various expressions, a gun sticker, and so on. But one stood out: a sticker with a cute furry design on it, and a QR code. I was so fascinated, I followed the QR code later that day... Sure enough

It's our birthday! We just turned 25 years old. That brings with it some impetus to stop and reflect, and I wanted to share said reflections here, to anyone willing to listen to me ramble. This year has for sure been one of the hardest we've ever had to face. Harder than dropping out of high school, harder than hunting for a treatment for my mysterious pain after that, harder than any online relationship I've entered or exited, good or bad, and harder than slaving over a coding project for years and years. I (now we) have had to deal with an awful lot in the last 365 days. At about this time last year, I was comfortably chilling in my personal discord server, enjoying my time with games and such, although crucially I must point out that my wrists had already been failing for quite some time by then, and I would rather cover up the problem with wrist braces. The biggest worry I had to deal with was little online drama things, like inviting someone back there who'd wronged me and mana

Our shoulder surgery is tomorrow (Oct 7th). It'll be our seventh surgery this year, and at least twelfth total. Unlike the others this year, I'm not looking forward to this one. Yes, it's important and necessary, but I've been led to believe the recovery will be harsher than the wrists and elbows. Even though we have a ways to go, our wrists and arms are currently doing a lot better than 1-2 months ago - and this surgery will set us back immediately, since we'll be in a cast again. I just learned our arrival time will be 5:30 AM, which is actually perfect, because our sleep is nocturnal right now. I also want to share what's been going on medically for the past month, because it's been a wild ride. OT OT went pretty okay, same as usual. There was a few highs and lows. I learned our grip strength has measurably improved since we started coming! That gave me some hope, even though our neck procedure left our arms and wrists in worse shape than before for a while. I was slowly but surely

Hi all. Health update again. First post in a good while too. If you've been with us on discord, you probably already know a lot of the stuff I'm about to say. If not, buckle up. About that neck procedure I talked about this in the last one, but we needed a neck procedure to reseat herniated discs in our neck. Well, it happened. On August 13th, we had the procedure. Due to me having pain with the IV, Sunny was the one who actually went in to the operating room. There was no generalized anesthesia for the operation, just local (instead of being put to sleep, we were made "loopy" and numb). When the doctor came in, he called us by our deadname, which is wrong, because his nurse already had our real name written on our chart from when we saw him before, so he should've known. Sunny corrected him, and he handwaved it in this kind of "yeah, sure" way, before Sunny felt something bump into their left elbow, where we'd had a previous surgery. It hurt, so Sunny complained, to which the doctor l

Hello again! I'm very happy to finally have some good news to share about our health! Over time, we've been getting better, bit by bit. It was a slow crawl at first. Back in March and April, we struggled to even get out of bed most days. But since Sunny showed up, we've been slowly reclaiming control of our life. Recently, our wrists and arms have been workable enough that we've not needed our wrist braces for quite some time! And not only that, I've been driving us around almost every day! Driving had been a pretty difficult milestone for us to reach, because of how much it uses our arms and wrists, but we've gotten to a very good place with it. I've been able to drive us to our local ARFID-friendly food place pretty often, last week I took us by office depot and we picked up a new chair and took it home, and the next day, we even went to a big, crowded mall, and picked up some clothes! (Plus some boots we probably need to return...) By the way, in the interest of helping our wrists,

I know what you are thinking, hear me out. Neither of us has made a post like this before but this is too perfect, I just had to share it with the world. So I just rewatched a movie from my childhood (before Eir existed) called Short Circuit. It is an old movie about a military robot created for war being struck by lightning and being brought to life. He meets a nice lady named Stephanie who is dealing with an abusive ex and trying to take care of dozens of animals, and she watches him take in the culture around him and start acting as a real life form, while they both try to evade the military trying to get him back. It is a fun and silly movie, especially if you are the type of nostalgic nerd who enjoys movies like The Truman Show, Groundhog Day, and The Terminator, and movies created around that time. So, during the first half of the movie, we see Number Five take in the world around him. He at first only knows how to say "malfunction, need input" but expands his vocabulary by rapid

Hi all, it's Eir. I've been wanting to write a "normal weblog post" for quite some time, feeling guilty or embarrassed by how many posts on this weblog are just health updates. But I could never come up with a solid topic to write about. I've had this idea floating around that we could write about games again - I have a few thoughts to share on some games, but I also had in mind that Sunny could be the one writing that post. But I'm not sure if Sunny even wants to do that. I might have put that expectation on them by mistake.I think gaming related posts are indeed in the near future, but for now, I want to write a normal weblog post for once. I'm gonna be reflecting on... just how we've been doing, and what our life is like now vs earlier this year, aside from these health things. How this year started My wrists got bad enough to close my Figura commissions last year in October, and that was still in effect. I was relying on my wrist braces heavily, but my main focus was on getting st

Hi again! I went to OT today. This is the one that was recommended by our awesome wrist surgeon, and he definitely made the right choice. My OT today was a very nice lady, who believed me about having EDS, and has apparently worked with many EDS patients before us. That's already a very good sign! But she was extra patient and careful with me, listened to all my boundaries, let me talk about my experience with EDS. She was totally respectful to my name and pronouns, and even briefly mentioned the struggle those with EDS and autism face, that being considered "not normal" by the neurotypical world means NTs want to shove us away. It gave me a lot of hope to hear her say "neurotypical" unprompted. It means she's totally aware of this kind of stuff! The thing that I think is the most important, though, is her friend. She told me about her friend who also lives in Texas. She lives with EDS and POTS, just like us, but less debilitating I imagine, because this lady is an accomplished researc