Hi all. pushing through the pain once again to write this. Today was the big day. After waiting through one of the most hellacious months of my entire lifeive been nothing short of suffering. nightly breakdowns, about my body breaking down, about being trapped in the medical system unwanted and unhelped, about being helpless physically and mentally as my depression and loneliness came back, about wanting to move on from friends, about trust issues, about everything i can't do now. pain sometimes so bad i cant hold my phone. laying in bed all day waiting weeks as time and chances go by, because i cant function without steroids now, and i only have two left, I got to see the spine specialist.This time, thankfully, there's only a bit of bad news, as opposed to a whole heaping pile of it. I have plenty of good news for you this time! The bad news: It is most likely not nerve pinching like we thought. My symptoms match up closer with ulnar tunnel syndrome, which is basically carpal tunnel b

Hi again! Time for a pretty overdue update. A while back - actually about half a month to a month now - my mom introduced me to this weird stuff. A big tub full of... collagen? Powder? With distilled protein? I didn't trust it, I thought it sounded like snake oil. Well, I asked my friends, and they all said it was trustworthy, so I gave it a shot. After some trouble initially, I've been having it every day, and, wow! I really am getting a bit of a difference now. It may sound like such a minor thing to you, but - I have an eating disorder, and I have a very hard time taking in proteins. So this is actually pretty huge. I'm immediately noticing my wrist healing up and even my breasts getting fuller (HRT win!). I am probably gonna be on this for as long as possible. I guess this is my... first... time? Having significant amounts of protein? Technically? It's so foreign to me right now, but maybe I'll get used to it? Also - Lurasidone. You probably saw that in the title. My previous antip

So I've been on this new medication, rexulti, fooor about two weeks now? I've very sorely needed an antipsychotic to go with my antidepressant. Um. Well, the side effects say you're most likely to feel dizzy and restless. And yeah. That's certainly happening. So I've been taking my meds every day in the aftermewn, and I've noticed that something like 3-4 hours after I take them, that restlessness really starts to kick in. It becomes nearly impossible to focus on anything, and before I know it I'm getting up and moving around and I can't sit still. At that point I might as well go to bed to skip ahead to when I can do stuff, which is what I've been doing, but then, do the meds even affect me after I wake up? Is it all worth it? So far I'd say yes. I've been feeling much calmer and much less terrified that everyone I've ever cared about is plotting something. But, uh, some way to deal with that restlessness would be very appreciated. Right now I'm just planning to take those meds later i