Hi again! Time for a pretty overdue update.

A while back - actually about half a month to a month now - my mom introduced me to this weird stuff. A big tub full of... collagen? Powder? With distilled protein? I didn't trust it, I thought it sounded like snake oil. Well, I asked my friends, and they all said it was trustworthy, so I gave it a shot. After some trouble initially, I've been having it every day, and, wow! I really am getting a bit of a difference now.

It may sound like such a minor thing to you, but - I have an eating disorder, and I have a very hard time taking in proteins. So this is actually pretty huge. I'm immediately noticing my wrist healing up and even my breasts getting fuller (HRT win!). I am probably gonna be on this for as long as possible. I guess this is my... first... time? Having significant amounts of protein? Technically? It's so foreign to me right now, but maybe I'll get used to it?

Also - Lurasidone. You probably saw that in the title. My previous antipsychotic that I wrote on here about - Rexulti - turned out to be a mistake. I was getting dizzy and losing focus constantly, feeling like I was kicked out of my body, and it was hardly helping. Well, this new one, Lurasidone, seems to be helping a lot. My friend who knows some medication stuff said it's effectively the opposite of my previous one, used to treat depressive episodes instead of manic ones, so that gives me some hope.

The only thing left now, I'd say, is my absolute heap of anxiety - and my need for therapy. I'm reliant on my mom for the latter, cause she said she had a good contact for it. But for the former, I'm supposed to start trying out some new meds soon. Anything to get that down. It really says something when I'm sent into a shaking, terrified mess because a discord contact said something to me.