Happy new year, as everyone's saying! I wasn't particularly as excited as everyone else has been, but I at least wanted to make this post to retrospect on everything that happened this year.

Overall, I'd say 2024 was, despite its obvious terrible spots, a very good year for me. I figured out so many things about myself and what I want to do. I feel like I really grew into myself and started to finally grow up this year. Here's some highlights:

• Created my personal website
• Visit with my partner
• Started Figura commissions, and made over $1000 total from it in 2024
• Got my driver's license, which required a lot of fighting against my mom and the abuse dynamic in my home, and a hard mental spiral after failing my first road test
• Reconnected with a childhood friend, who turned out to be a wonderful trans girl like me, and got very close over time, and visited a lot
• PC upgrades, various server box tweaks and services
• Helped a dear friend fight off an abusive influence
• Made Eirtube (if you know, you know)
• Begun learning how to fight back in my own way, against the intense, uncaring situation in my home, piece by piece
• Started growing up mentally and teaching myself confidence and assurance
• Finally got a date for the extremely important nose surgery I've been waiting for for years
• Met a dude at a burger place who was out of cash and down on his luck, just got scammed, and I drove him across the city to where he needed to be just in time, for free
• Finally received help with my wrists
• Even after I was hurt deeply in terms of romance, there's lovely people interested in me who I can try letting my guard down around and let something develop

Yeah, that's pretty amazing, isn't it? A lot of good things! I'm actually extremely glad I started this very blog in the first place. I think having it in this format, and easily accessible to me, is extremely important. I wouldn't be making blog posts otherwise. And look, now there's a very easy way to see what happened with me this year, you just read my blog posts!

...Well, I'd be remiss not to mention the obvious, though. 2025 brings with it some bad things, too:

• A certain bad man will be in power in my country
• I live in a very transphobic state ruled by someone who simps for said bad man
• It's likely even more transphobic, ableist, etc. laws will be passed here
• One year closer to getting kicked off my mom's health insurance and having to have my own (not even close to feasible)

Right now, I don't have too much planned. I'm gonna snag some late krimas gifts for a dear friend, I've got a total website overhaul in the works, and most importantly, I have surgeries on January 3rd and 21st, for my nose and wrists respectively.

Umm, I don't really know how to close this, I'll just add a personal anecdote. Since a few days ago, my confidence somewhat vanished and I've been shelling constantly. It coincided with reconnecting with someone from a dark time in my past. We did make amends and figure out how to be friends again, logically speaking, but my mental headspace has been shot ever since. I seriously had it all together until ??? happened. It could also be related to antipsychotic dosage. I'm sure I have to be able to get it back - I didn't spend all that time for nothing - but right now all I can do is deal with it...