So... I may have accidentally compromised the permission structure of my ENTIRE server box the other day. All of it. Oops. I was trying to add a new feature to my site - one I'm still dabbling with, and not having much success with, involving Jellyfin/seerr. In the process, I tried to mess with permissions, and accidentally changed some important bits on my entire user directory. To make matters worse, I escalated it and did the same procedure on... the root folder. Immediately, my ssh sessions began asking for a password and not letting me in. I looked up a solution to undo what I'd done, which recommended changing the bits on the ENTIRE system. I foolishly followed. This disabled the use of sudo completely (!!) and at this point I knew all I could do was completely reinstall from scratch. Thankfully, that process was fairly straightforward. I did run into a few issues, like Jellyfin not installing correctly on the latest dietpi install (I'm not the only one to run into this, apparent

Hi! Been a bit. A few things to go over this time, cause a lot has happened since I got my license: Got in contact with an old IRL friend! This one is pretty huge! A friend of mine I've known since childhood got in contact with me again. She's a trans girl just like me now, and she actually invited me over! And because I got my license, I got to drive there! It was lots of fun, and I'm planning to come back. We were both really happy to see each other. I've got a few thoughts though. Actually going to the apartment of someone who's living on minimum wage (and her two roommates in the same situation), it really grounded me a bit. Maybe the obvious money difference between us isn't as dehumanizing as I thought. They're still kind and fun people to be around. On the other hand though, I still feel like I've yet to be properly humbled by needing to work to live. Since then, with her, I've been a bit off and on. I like her a lot and want to get to know her better, but, frankly, I feel like

Woooo!! I actually got it! Just today! Oh gosh, I didn't think I was gonna get it - I was already preparing to be told I still didn't pass, I was preparing for the worst, but! When the sweet instructor lady told me I passed, I put my paws over my mouth and gasped! I really did it!! I got lucky getting such a kind and forgiving instructor compared to last time, I think. She was so friendly. I only got marked down for like two or three things - I wasn't watching for cross traffic in the calm neighborhood, and I didn't signal coming out of the parallel parking. But other than that? Oh my god I did it!! See for yourself! What am I going to do now? I dunno! First things first, I'll be able to go get fast food any time I want. I do have jury duty on this coming Wednesday. Originally the idea was for me to get my license and practice the route there before I go. But my mom has since insisted that she take me herself. I think I've already had enough excitement for one month, so I'm thinking of

I think things might finally be starting to improve. The main issue here being my difficulties with socializing and especially meeting new people. That's honestly my biggest concern right now, even bigger than driving because I've basically already got that in the bag. So, I'm seeing a therapist now. We've had two sessions, and while I don't think we've gotten to major coping skills or solutions yet, I have hope for this. But I'm also trying a little experiment. A friend invited me to their personal discord a while back, and I neglected to join for the longest time. I decided to finally take them up on that offer, for the sake of improvement. I did this once before - last year. Back then, it was a mistake. The person was untrustworthy, the group was extremely clique and unsafe for me mentally, and I was thrust far, far past my comfort zone. But this time is different. I had a look at the server. While its vibes may be a little strange and new to me so far, and I don't recognize most of

Recently I decided to try Rain World, which I'd previously seen my partner and some friends play and gush about. I was drawn in by the cute slugcats and the art style, especially the whole "abandoned world" aesthetic. You go through areas with lots of rust, pipes, broken machinery, stuff like that. I was also aware going in that this was an "exploration" kind of game, the kind that doesn't hold your hand and gives little instruction. I figured it wasn't going to be that bad. Here's how my first experience went, playing blind. Starting out, learning to hunt for food and hibernate was easy and intuitive. Surviving and fighting monsters is hard, but I can understand it. I enjoyed narrowly escaping a giant lizard and getting to the next shelter. My problem began with the Drainage System area. There's this area with a big pit, and a shelter on the other side. I, assuming I was making progress, jumped the pit and saved in the shelter - now I respawn there. I found that the adjacent room was

CW: Venting, irl, mentions of verbal harassment So, let's talk about driving. I live in a pretty tightly packed area. There's just rows and rows and rows of houses in any direction. You've got to go for quite a ways before you get to any stores or businesses. Generally, if you want to go anywhere, you need to be able to drive. Jogging and bicycling can only get you so far. There is no public transport here. You can't just take a tram to work or walk to the grocery store. You have no choice but to drive. Now, this is something that's been being hammered into my head since I was something like 16. I need to learn to drive. Everyone here does. I was pressured from early on during a very bad time in my life to learn to drive, and I just couldn't. I was completely overwhelmed and dropped it. I actually fell deep into physical disability, but that's a story for another time. By the time I could actually walk again, it was back. Mostly from my mom, mind you. And again - I won't be able to get

Hi again! Time for a pretty overdue update. A while back - actually about half a month to a month now - my mom introduced me to this weird stuff. A big tub full of... collagen? Powder? With distilled protein? I didn't trust it, I thought it sounded like snake oil. Well, I asked my friends, and they all said it was trustworthy, so I gave it a shot. After some trouble initially, I've been having it every day, and, wow! I really am getting a bit of a difference now. It may sound like such a minor thing to you, but - I have an eating disorder, and I have a very hard time taking in proteins. So this is actually pretty huge. I'm immediately noticing my wrist healing up and even my breasts getting fuller (HRT win!). I am probably gonna be on this for as long as possible. I guess this is my... first... time? Having significant amounts of protein? Technically? It's so foreign to me right now, but maybe I'll get used to it? Also - Lurasidone. You probably saw that in the title. My previous antip

Oh my gosh!! I'm so excited!! I actually got my first client for my Figura avatar commission service! I was able to work out the initial price estimate with them, use paypal to send my first invoice, had them pay half upfront, and ultimately I ended up acing this thing. I totally mean to brag here - I sped through it, got almost everything done in about 9 hours, made the skin from scratch, set up my scripts, set up physics, got everything nice and clean, and even discovered a few subtle improvements live with my client to make things look neater. It's so much fun!! I ultimately wasn't as stressed as I expected to be. It helps that this is someone I knew, but as I go forward I should totally expect to do this for people I've just met, too. And, granted, I'm not sure how much mileage I'm going to get while I'm still closed up in my cozy little servers and stuff. But, you know, that is just how I like it. Maybe I'll make a subpage on /commissions with a list of previous commissions I've d

Site redesign is incoming! Or, well, it's been underway for about a week now. I haven't been posting here as much as a result. But basically I'm implementing an awful lot. An account system. Settings. Theme customizations with custom css. Fancy URL matches to php. Custom error pages. Markdown support. And most importantly, everyone now gets their own blog! * I had planned to have support for comments, too, but I think that's beyond me right meow. Although post tags are a thing now! Technically. The way it works is all posts are stored in one database, and if you go to eir-nya.gay/user/<username>/posts it fetches all posts by that user. But that's basically the same as them having their own blog. It even loads their custom theme settings. So yay?

Things are getting a bit exciting here! Now that I'm available again after having London over, I'm free to once again work on Crossovertale, play some games (did you know team switched's underswap chapter 2 came out recently?) and some more... The real main thing i wanted to talk about though is Figura. You may know I used it to make a personal character model before (it's on the main page of my site). I've been encouraged to do this several times, but now I'm finally doing it! I'm opening commissions for Figura models! See the page I set up for it! I've never done something like this before, so I'm a bit nervous, but I have faith my skill and confidence will do the talking for me. In terms of responsibility, though, I am also supposed to start attending a driving school to get my practice in for my license. I called, but they haven't called back. I guess it's gonna be a bit of a waiting game. Are they even still in business? Who knows? Either way, working on that and Crossovertale is