So I've been on this new medication, rexulti, fooor about two weeks now? I've very sorely needed an antipsychotic to go with my antidepressant. Um. Well, the side effects say you're most likely to feel dizzy and restless. And yeah. That's certainly happening. So I've been taking my meds every day in the aftermewn, and I've noticed that something like 3-4 hours after I take them, that restlessness really starts to kick in. It becomes nearly impossible to focus on anything, and before I know it I'm getting up and moving around and I can't sit still. At that point I might as well go to bed to skip ahead to when I can do stuff, which is what I've been doing, but then, do the meds even affect me after I wake up? Is it all worth it? So far I'd say yes. I've been feeling much calmer and much less terrified that everyone I've ever cared about is plotting something. But, uh, some way to deal with that restlessness would be very appreciated. Right now I'm just planning to take those meds later i

I didn't realize I juuust finished this system in time for New Year's until about an hour before midnight. Huh! 2023 was... honestly it could've gone way better for me. I felt like my boundaries and safe space were being eroded month by month. It was ups and downs, but the downs were really down. I can certainly say it gave me hope that my depression can be properly managed, though. I just need to keep a better eye on my boundaries. Plans for 2024? After London's visit, I'm planning to go to a driving school and finally get my license. Despite missing it so hard in December, I still feel like I was pretty close. Oh, and, I'd like to figure out the best way to take my new meds, cause it can be a bit rough. But yeah, I'm looking forward to this January a bit?

That's a great question! I was thinking, like, a mix between life updates, the occasional thought I wanna share with everyone, that sort of thing. In other words, exactly what you'd expect from a personal blog. My friends might be tilting their heads right now, since I don't usually commit to this sort of thing. Ironically, I tend to keep my emotions very close to my chest! To that I say, maybe this is still worth a shot? For example, here's something going on with me right now: London is coming over! On January 8th, to be exact! We're both really excited. I don't think I'll necessarily share everything to do with it here - especially while it's happening - but maybe my friends and I will look back at these posts one day and uncover a bit of Eir history, you know? 💖

It took a while, but I've set this up, and I'm really proud of it! I used a system so only visitors with certain IP addresses can make, edit, or delete posts. Right now that's me and London! The current editor is very bare-bones and only lets me input raw HTML. But the upside is, since I've implemented editing functionality, I get as many tries as I want.